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Mindful Waiting
Queenie | December 11, 2018

I’m a fairly impatient person. My impatience stems from the easy instant gratification I can get from Facebook and Instagram likes and Amazon Prime’s two-day shipping. But for some things, I just have to wait.

 I recently completed my graduate school applications and now it is just a waiting game. With all of my transcripts, GRE test scores, and supplemental essays submitted, now I just have to wait. It definitely felt like I was applying for college all over again: Asking teachers for recommendations, drafting and proofreading school-specific essays, doing research for which school is the best fit. Most of all, what reminded me most of my college application process was how stressed I was.

Mental health is something I am very passionate about. I preach self-care tips and being mindful in every day endeavors to my friends and community members. However, in times like this when I am stressed, I find it difficult to preach these same self-care tips to myself. Just as much as I need to hear these words of advice, I believe that you all should hear it as well.

  • Approach yourself with non-judgment.

During my application process, I found myself judging every little thing about myself. My head filled with thoughts like “You’re not good enough” and “Your GPA isn’t even competitive, why are you even trying”. I was judging myself harsher than anyone else and was breaking myself down instead of building myself up. When I started accepting myself and things as it is, I felt a weight lift off my shoulders. I may not have the most competitive GPA, but I do have a great passion for community engagement and outreach. Judging myself did not help my application or my wellbeing and it’s best to be mindful of how we treat ourselves.

  • Accept each present moment as it is.

Now that my applications are submitted, they are out of my hands. I am waiting for the next steps and worrying in the present moment will not hasten this process. Still, it is difficult for me to not think about it. Any feelings of uncertainty I have about the future are valid, but I should not spend more of my time living in the future if I want to be present in the moment. Living in the present moment and enjoying things like the falling leaves and cool winter breeze are much better experiences than wallowing in fear and anxiety about what my future holds.

  • Practice the art of letting go.

As humans, we have a tendency to hold on to what is pleasant and reject what is unpleasant. It makes sense because it feels good to do so. But if we continue to hold on and look back on fond memories and push away any unpleasant experiences, we will have a very biased view of life’s experiences. It is both the good and bad experiences that make up our life experiences. We need to neither hold onto nor reject these experiences but to acknowledge them as they come and then let it go.

As we move forward with the application process, we may realize a spelling mistake we made on an essay or regret not choosing a more engaging essay topic. These regrets might grow when we start receiving admissions offers and/or denial letters. It’s important to practice self-compassion as the results come in and recognize that no matter what happens, we tried our best and should continue doing so as we move forward.

This past semester, there were moments when I felt that I wouldn’t make it. It was hard. I was struggling. And I didn’t know if I would make it past this stressful time. But I did. It feels good to know that I have made it through and that I am now here. Whether it’s applying for college, graduate school, or jobs – being cognizant and practicing these three tips will make things better as we mindfully wait for good things to come.

About the author

I am majoring in Psychology. South Philadelphia, born and raised, I decided to attend a college 15 minutes away from home. Despite being so close to home, Penn has led me to pursue many interesting experiences and adventures that are normally far out of my comfort zone such as traveling to Singapore and Malaysia, joining a sorority, and managing an entire cultural show production.

As an aspiring counselor/therapist, I not only love helping my friends through their own journeys of self-discovery but I’m also a big fan of my own self-reflection through various mediums like blogging, writing, and painting. In my blog posts, I aim to be completely candid and true to how my experiences made me who I am today and to help inspire self-reflection in others as well.

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